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Don't Let the Enemy Steal From You - The Truth is Love
Series: What Can Love Do for You?
(Adapted from the book, Love is Not an Emotion-Learning to Love No Matter What)
Shanna D. Gregor
The enemy dealt me a serious blow. My Grandma died of cancer my senior year of high school. My spiritual life shipwrecked. In my mind, God had failed me; therefore, His love must be conditional, or so I reasoned. The person I esteemed as holy, righteous, and close to God, lost her battle with cancer in spite of so many who prayed and trusted God to heal her. I believed a lie, deceived into thinking: God let her die. He let me down. He must have.
I stuffed God into a closet in my heart, and only took Him out for ''emergencies''- when I really thought I needed Him. At the same time, I was angry and wanted answers from Him, especially the big question that many believe to be unmentionable. I asked Why?
1 Corinthians 13 is often called ''The Love Chapter'' of the Bible. It describes the actions, characteristics and the fruit, or what is visible, when you practice love. Love is patient. Patience is a big problem for me. It is one of love's many characteristics I struggle with most. I wanted God to give me answers right then.
My reasoning seemed off-if God is loving, giving and loves us more than our earthly fathers, (and I certainly hoped so!) then I wanted to see Him in that light-as a father. If ye then, being evil, know how to give good gifts unto your children, how much more shall your Father which is in heaven give good things to them that ask him?  And if He's as good as the Bible says He is to us, then what loving, giving Father would withhold the answers my heart desperately desired?
So I asked again and again, Why? It was a slow process. I was angry at everyone-at God, and at myself, for not being there more with my grandmother, before she went to Heaven. I was angry because I felt I needed her-perhaps more than I needed God. The answers to why came through the years. It was a true character-building challenge for me to find patience and wait for the answers to be revealed to me.
The experiences of my life challenged me to question who I was. It took years to discover the truth. My inability to love unconditionally k ...
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